My Bee Story
Many years ago my life changed significantly when I was made redundant. I was totally lost for a while with no idea of what I wanted to do. I couldn’t believe I’d got to this age in life and here I was out on my ear and bitter about it! My ambitions to play and win the corporate game had been dashed. In hindsight I know I would have been miserable as a corporate executive – it’s so not me! I truly believe, now, in divine intervention!
At that time, with no idea of my direction I decided I needed to do some serious soul searching; I needed to find within myself what I was meant to do for the rest of my time on this planet. It didn’t come to me for ages. I joined a mob of Aboriginal women for a wonderful week of art and ceremony camped out near Uluru! I spent a couple of days with an aboriginal healer in Alice Springs communing with the land and the spirits for inspiration. I travelled to Ubud in Bali and did hours of spine-twisting yoga! I took great long walks in Bidjigal nature reserve and of course, I had my coach. But, finally, my source of clarity and inspiration came from an unexpected source – a DVD!
This particular DVDs was called “The Vanishing of the Bees”. It is a documentary about the colony collapse disorder wiping out millions of bees across the planet. This movie had a profound impact on me in two ways. Firstly, unexpectedly, it made me angry. It “got me in the guts”! A deep, primal response got activated and I felt incensed by the injustice in the world (it related to the use of systemic pesticides in agriculture, which are destroying the immune systems of the bees). I felt my cells buzzing with rage and hurt and sadness.
What happened next was also unexpected but I now recognize it as a core part of who I am. In one scene in the movie they follow a bee collecting pollen on a sunflower. The bee is happy and healthy and moving intentionally in it’s beautiful, bumbly kind of way.
Then they show another bee collecting pollen on a sunflower that has been doused in systemic pesticides. This bee is disoriented, unstable, struggling to keep upright.
Never the Same Since…
At that moment the profound impact of what we humans do to innocent bees (and also butterflies, lady beetles, trees and even babies and children!) hit me like a sledgehammer. I burst into tears! My heart bled! What was really interesting was my next reaction. Once again a profound whole body experience occurred where every cell of my being felt a primal, protective urge – like a parent’s instinct to protect their child in danger. It rocked me.
In that moment I knew I had to do something. I felt my duty to right a wrong. Shortly after, I decided to practice as a naturopath again. I had given it up years ago vowing to never go back to it. And yet, it wanted me and I guess, I surrendered. I just had to get out of my own way and give up all the stories I had about why I couldn’t do it! I had to let go and trust.
I recognized the “rightness” of being a naturopath and how it fit so well with who I am. I’m a healer. I’m the happiest when I’m fulfilling my own purpose, not someone else’s; it was natural for me to nurture people, to be a stand for their greatness and to help them grow; I have a million qualifications all relating to health, healing and personal development. It was obvious wasn’t it! That was what I was meant to do!
So I did it! I went back to college to upgrade my qualifications. I found a supportive, nurturing place to practice at Health Dimensions and then Sivanna Health with an integrative GP. I nervously helped my first few clients! I learned heaps, I got better and better, busier and busier.
It has been the hardest, most challenging, most difficult and most extraordinary time of my life! And while i get distracted and deviate occasionally I know nothing will stop me from honouring those feelings inside, driving me to make my difference in the world.
Now over 4 years later, I’m practicing out of my own space, working with workplace wellness, delivering workshops and thoroughly enjoying myself.
Thank you. I hope to see you here soon.
For love and protection,